The Empyrean

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Me - So far love and common sense  is concerned, I have no mother,  no father, no brother, no sister,  no relatives, no wife,  no children, no  friends ... I know I am on the TOP of this world.  Even if you remove your robotic control over minds of mankind,  what I am getting?  I will still be ALONE on mountain peak... I know you are forcing me to go through your state of mind.  Absolutely disgusting state of mind. I am living only because you have kept in almost perfect physical health. God - Someone should have understood what is True State of my Mind. Me - But you don't die, but as a human I can and I am going to use it. I indeed don't want on top of this world. I just want PEACE. Just peace after my death. Nothing else.

God - Last words... Me  - That Triangle - Arrowhead solution to Newton's third law happened on borrowed money.  But society had given me those money on guarantee of my friends. Your rude mankind wasn't involved in this invention. And anyway I had repaid that society loan from my earned money. So this Triangle - Arrowhead invention belongs to me. Same thing about Triangle -Arrowhead Reactionless Propulsion. Because of your flawed economy,  governments keep printing money. Inflation keep rising. Prices of things keep rising. In my perfect economy,  I still would have left my earned money in my pocket. Hence instead of 3 thousand rupees,  I still would have left 1947 rupees in my pocket and in non-inflationary economy I still would have invented reactionless propulsion device on my earned money. You can't fool me by your flawed logic that these inventions have happened on public money. Also I discovered theory and equations on mobile which was bought on my friend's m

Me To God - Wait a minute... So this is how you suppress logic and memories of people to create good impression about you. In Andaman, I have walked to strangers many times for help.  Let me  count... 1. On very first day you forced me to try to sleep in mosquito infected dirty area. On second day I found that every government worker in that Port Blair to Havelock island port is extremely rude, especially that ticket giver. I was giving money still he was behaving very rudely with everyone. I lost chance to go to havelock because I ran short of money. 2. Then Police. Police everywhere in India are corrupt and rude.  They and whole rude society create more criminals by their rude, animalistic and pathetic behaviour. That rude police at the gate of port was right - "yeh physics wisycs yaha nahi chalega". They didn't even allow me to sleep in front of port gate in that street side empty stall. (3) I took shelter in abandoned bus because one person told me not to sleep

ऐ दिल-ए-नादान, ऐ दिल-ए-नादान आरज़ू क्या है, जुस्तजू क्या है हम भटकते हैं, क्यों भटकते हैं, दश्त-ओ-सेहरा में ऐसा लगता है, मौज प्यासी है अपने दरिया में कैसी उलझन है, क्यों ये उलझन है एक साया सा रूबरू क्या है क्या कयामत है, क्या मुसीबत है कह नहीं सकते, किस का अरमां है ज़िन्दगी जैसे खोई खोई है, हैरां हैरां है ये ज़मीं चूप है, आसमां चूप है फिर ये धड़कन सी चार सू क्या है ऐ दिल-ए-नादान, ऐसी राहों में कितने काँटे हैं आरजूओं ने हर किसी दिल को दर्द बाँटे हैं कितने घायल हैं, कितने बिस्मिल हैं इस खुदाई में एक तू क्या है https://youtu.be/rJRIAKQhaYA

Me - I thank YOU for keeping your promise which I had asked you some 19 years ago.  My loved ones are still alive, though you have created my  conflict with them. I understand that it's your war strategy. Important thing is that all of them - except my grandfather - are still alive. In One case you indeed sweetly surprised me. I again pray to you keep all of them happy and well for long time. I have done my job, but you are suppressing logic of everyone. If you are waiting for invention of that empyrean device or Bramhastra through which all this Universe is created,  then I am extremely tired. You are still commanding my mind and hands. Someone will discover it automatically while working on this Triangle - Arrowhead shaped Reactionless Propulsion invention. Remember,  I will not ask any kind of help to anyone. I will not even touch any food found on streets. I will not touch any cigarette/bidi buts found on streets, neither I will ask anyone for cigarette. I will not beg, bor

God - "I am weaker than bacteria and stronger than God ", remember you said it in your mind at 18? Me - Still you dared several times to insult me. God - You actually never sat on ground to beg. So your accommodation that I have made you beggar is baseless. Me - (Hands tied behind,  on knees, staring at Him in extreme anger) But you have forced me to beg. God - You walked to strangers just thrice in thousands of kilometres journey. It's true that they refused. Rest of the times I myself sent people to you or told you to walk in my nearby prayer places. I myself sent that man to help you to get out of Andaman when in your mind you had decided to die hungry. He spent five thousand rupees,  gave you food for 2 weeks. So your accusation that I am 99% evil is wrong. You almost never walked to strangers for help. In whole journey I didn't give you even minor illness. How do you know that 99% people are rude and evil? Me - Yes, I walked to strangers just three time

God - So your departure is certain. Me - Yup, you may never allow this world to understand pains given by you to me whole life. In the end I have slept on roads hungry,  suffered insults all over India - from Jammu to Andman -, ate thrown food on road, smoked thrown cigarette and bidi buts on roads. You have created extremely rude world. There might be just less than one per cent good people. And it directly means you are 99% evil, dumb, rude. I don't think even if I succeed in creating empyrean or Bramhastra device, your evil and dumb nature will change. So suffering any more torture is pretty useless . Now why the hell you are trying to put me to sleep when I am criticising you? I have had full sleep.

God - You just said that you have gone through unbearable pains in whole life.  What pains? In your whole 49 year long life not a single time you were admitted in hospital,  not even for hour. In whole 49 year long life not a single time any doctor came to your doorstep because you were never so ill. Even now you don't have any physical disease, though you have wished many times some serious disease like cancer so that you can give that reason to commit suicide. In fact twice doctors has told you that you have malaria and typhoid. You didn't bother to take even single pill they had prescribed.  You are still alive. In contrary it's true that I have done these things with all the members of your family.  I have admitted them in hospital,  called doctors at home,  have given them this or that disease. But not to you. What pains you are talking about? Me - I mean psychological pains, you dumbf*** stupid.  Migraine... God - Migraine is not physical disease.  No doctor kno

If I need money for invention  (now I don't) why I resigned from LIC?  Why don't I try to find job to earn money? What the hell is going on? I think during last few days I have figured out what was going on in this chaotic life. (1) On the eve of Rama Navami - 17 April 2005 - I discovered solution to Newton's third law in Hotel Staywel, Dadar. But from 26 December 2004 to 8 June 2005 I was surviving in Mumbai on Society loan of one lakh rupees. i was indeed in suicide mode. Somehow -accidentally - I discovered Solution to Newton's third law. So this invention was basically invented using public money. Yes, later on I repaid that loan but on 17 April 2005 that invention happened on public money. (2) On 25 June 2016 I woke up and decided to disclose this invention. (Why I remained silent for 11 years, it's different story). I asked my brother just eight hundred rupees and the horror show of typical Indian family began. I am sure that because of such aboriginal m

I think in November 1999 I was strong enough even if that mind - body disconnection shock had again struck me. And anyway at the age of 30 I thought my life is over.  Years of excessive stress,  loneliness had pushed me in total depression. I was unmarried  (and still I am), so I had nothing to lose. So I dared again to look into that "darkness" i.e origin of Universe, life etc. People thought that I suddenly towards physics or science. No, it was my attempt to figure out what exactly had resulted in mind - body disconnection shock. I knew that scientists don't get power to change constitutions of countries and most of them don't even get money and certainly scientists don't become famous like filmstars. So all the elements which I had wanted were absconding in this field.  My aim was just to figure out what exactly had resulted in that mind - body disconnection shock.  As no word exist in dictionary,  I have to say that I am working on physics or science theory

So at the age of 19, when that  BIG-BANG like feeling was still vibrating my mind, I started thinking something which from POV of every person is completely insane or even beyond insanity. POWER - Only Power can bring change on this earth which can create perfectly happy and ordered society.  But what can a 19 year old poor village boy do to gain complete command over all the militaries on earth?  Finally I thought that after becoming IAS I will be inside power corridor of India. After understanding power mechanism, I might be able to think how to gain confidence of Army Chiefs. I was thinking something like this even after joining LIC. That is why I again started preparing for IAS. If I had failed in IAS,  I would have persuade same thing in Mumbai through some different way. So I used to avoid people because of two things - (1) that mind - body disconnection and BIG-BANG like vibrating mind  (2) who knows,  if I had talked too much I might have revealed my mind to someone and it

Though I had stopped thinking about Universe - to which you call Science - because of Mind -Body disconnection shock, still I couldn't stop thinking about state of mankind on this earth. Glimpses of Word History - somehow I reached to the conclusion that all the religions are dead.  Instead of  helping each other for progress of human civilisation and understanding this Universe,  all religious people hate each other,  completely ignore needy people and helpless beggars. All the prayer places of God - Mandirs, Masjids, Churches, Gurdwaras etc have become religious tourism places. Billions of rupees are spent to build these prayer places which goes to already rich people like builders, architectures etc. These prayer places are totally useless for humanity - essence of mankind. There are millions and millions of poor,  hungry, needy people worldwide,  but neither religious people nor governments  (elected by same religious people) pay attention to these poor and needy people. Also m

Now this is something about me not a single human being knows. Not a single word I ever talked to anyone no matter how close that person was to me.  Because such attitude is appropriate for Emperors, certainly not for a 18 year old poor village boy. I had completely stopped thinking about Universe and God things because of that horrible mind - body disconnection thing. But "damage" to my mind was already done.  I could never concentrate on college study.  In TYBSc I failed twice. Somehow I passed TYBSC with just  42% but got job in LIC on basis of HSC. I  said  "damage" to my mind was already done. Because whatever ordinary people think as big things, those things had/have become petty things for me.  For example;  ordinary think IAS officers or President of some countries are VERY BIG things. But such jobs have become petty in my eyes. In current democratic world Presidents and Prime minister are slaves of people. Religions are dead long ago.  Absolute monarchy

People also wonder how on earth I suddenly turned towards this science thing at the age of 30. Almost all scientists have discovered this or that before age of  30, but it looks that I started learning ABCD of science at the age of 30, in November During this study I came across two books;  Glimpses of the World History and Arthur Eddington's book. And because of these two books I am what I am  (Though God is trying to make me believe that it is just my nature since last many births. Otherwise why these two books created that BIG-BANG like Universe encompassing feeling only in me?) I casually thought over trying to find answers to questions regarding our Universe. I gave very serious thought over questions like how this Universe came into existence, how life originated, who am I and where would I go after death, if God created this Universe then who created God? And I noticed that I am suffering from mind - body disconnection.  It was so horrible period that I stopped reading a

Right now I am in lodge in Igatpuri. On streets,  I can't even charge mobile. I feel like bombs are falling everywhere around me,  earth vibrating, smoke, dust everywhere and I am running in senseless direction because I just can't think due to hunger, sweat. (I am shouting again and again that this reactionless propulsion is all about NEW LAND - Planets, Asteroids and whole Universe. But that haraamzada God is making you believe that I have gone mad and He is fighting WAR with me.) I am seeing that my end is certain within few days  - unless HE interven - let me try to write somethings which until now only HE knows. As I am not going to stop music playing, my writing would look nonsense.  But it was always nonsense, you would say. In 1986 I ran away from VJTI Matunga telling my family that I want to be Pilot, not Engineer. But other reason was that being a village boy I simply caved in Mumbai.  There was one more reason which I will not type. (I am seeing that haraamzada G